Scattegories

I feel like I should actually write something about these past months and days. I mean, holy shite, when the end of May rolled around, I didn't expect such a crazy two, three months. I really feel like I made this incredible jump from sophomore to junior, from being a 동생 to 언니 status.

I grew so much this summer: Interhigh small church services, the China trip, Upperclassman Discipleship Retreat, Welcome Week activities... Looking back, I feel like I really have changed, even though I barely recognized it when it happened. I'd like to spend some more time really trying to put this experience into a few, eloquent words but I need to sleep soon and get ready for my first official day as a junior and get ready for class.

To end then, I just want to say... I want to love people. I wish I could communicate to everyone I meet how much God loves them and how much I want to love them in turn. I find myself emotionally investing in people more now, more so then sophomore year, even more so then the beginning of the China trip. I feel like I'm about to burst with enthusiasm; I'm so close to forcing them to come out and like us, chaining them and dragging them out! Not really, but that sort of sentiment is there. It's like I really want to see them more and get to know them; them: anyone and everyone who will listen, who I can meet and just get to talk to.

With all this, I feel so ridiculously foolish for my pride and insecurity, that I would let such things hinder me from reaching out and doing more, that I would be so self-focused.

I hope that I can continue along this vein and not burn out, but burn on and on with the eternal fire and life that God provides, with the urgency and excitement that comes with doing His work, motivated and driven from now to the end by an unconditional, beautiful, and healing, life-giving love.